So... looks like I took a wee bit of a break here at the blog. (Almost four months…)
I guess I needed a little bit of time.
If you follow me on Instagram, you probably already know, but if not, this past spring I had to say goodbye to my old pup, Bailey, & then three weeks later my Dad passed away.
I knew the time was drawing to a close with Bailey, & yet it was so hard to say goodbye. But, because he was declining more & more, I knew it was time. He has been my sweet, funny, & smart(!) little guy (& Dad's buddy) for all these years & he sure left a big hole in my heart.
With Dad, it was a little bit the same. I knew that he was declining, & instead of having an issue arrive & Dad being able to recover (or as the hospital doctor said, ‘rally’) from it… issues began to build one upon another. He adjusted as best he could, but it all became too much for his brain & body to fight off. I realized, that last night at home, when I had to call 911 for him - that he didn’t know who I was. He knew that I was there to help, & he knew that he had a daughter named Brenda, but he just didn’t know that I was her. He was so sweet about it… & while we were in the hospital (I got special permission to be with him) - I do think that once in a while he knew who I was. But then, it would go & I was his helper again. When I asked him who I was… he looked at me (a little confused) & then smiled & said, “Oh yes!… you work for me!” I smiled at him, & told him that, “why yes, I do!… & I sure love it!” That was one of the last conversations we had, & I will treasure it for as long as I live.
But Dad was ready, & I know that God was preparing him to come Home. He was in the hospital for a few days & then transferred to a wonderful hospice care facility. All the family was able to get here to say goodby & while my brother & I were with him, he left for heaven a few days later. So, while I miss him daily, I know he is where he has longed to be for awhile, & that brings such a peace & comfort to me.
Dad lived to be 92, & Bailey lived to be 14.
While I knew that both of them, the ‘men’ in my life, were in their golden years & were both having more & more health issues…I think that afterwards, with the house now so quiet, I felt the need to be quiet too. (…& then throw in all the Covid restrictions!) It was as if God was giving me time to adjust… time to think, time to remember, & time to feel how grateful I am to have had the time I did with Dad (I’ve been his caregiver for the past several years), & also for my sweet little Bailey.
Loss is hard, but I’m so thankful & so blessed to have had both of these special men in my life!
I'll be back soon - to catch up with some of the events that have happened (& a new fabric collection) since my time away. Thank you for being here... you all mean more to me than I can say.
I thought I would check to see what was new on your blog after noticing your Dover and Sophie fabrics at my local shop. I am so saddened to hear of the passing of your father and little pal. Words seem hollow at times like these but know that you have many people that sympathize and empathize with what you have been going through. All I can say is that I am truly sorry and hope that over time the days will be a little brighter. You do brighten the days of those of us that love your patterns and designs. I am making a quilt with your Bramble Cottage (finally) and can’t wait until I see the final result. Thank you for all you do and please remember to take the time you need for yourself.
I’m so sorry for your losses. I too took care of my father the last several years of his life, it’s an honor to be able to do that for them and I’m glad your father had you there. And our pets hold a special place in our hearts.
I came to your website after seeing a quilt pattern made from some of your wonderful fabrics, so I’ve been searching around the Internet to see if I can buy some. I also love your pink and white Lone Star quilt from your book, that design is so beautiful.
It has been hot here but signs of autumn are all around and you have been in my thoughts so often. I know God does that…gives us gifts like that. There is a great comfort in knowing you always have Gods arms to wrap around you and you are never truly alone.
sending only good thoughts
So nice to hear from you and grateful you are doing well. My thoughts and prayers have been with you all these months.